autumm's Daily Capricorn Forecast
Quickie: Have you lost some of your idealism? People are essentially good -- remember that.
Overview: How strong is your connection to your inner truth? It's time to ask yourself what really matters in your life, and push everything else to the side. Live intensely and beautifully. Don't waste any time.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Friday, February 10, 2006
Time
Time
Tick Tock Tick Tock
It has become my ring in the trilogy as I am pressed so hard for more and more of it and as I cry as it slips through my fingers. So, time is short as always and I have to put a limit on this but I need it like an addict to the fix. Not sure what brought it on honestly, it could have something to do with the wine or the terry cloth robe or perhaps the late night. Perhaps it has something to do with the loss of my religion as the old song goes, well I guess it is not that long ago. But I remember hearing Mr. Stipe talk about the song when I was a kid and explaining the meaning. I did not understand then what it would mean to lose everything that you believed in, for the bottom to fall out of the heart and soul of what you hold dear. But here it is and here I am and I can not deny that I am feeling what I am.
I guess I was in search of utopia. I thought that I would be happy if I could make someone else happy but he had other things that made him happy. And so I figured I could be happy if everyone else was happy but alas everyone is never happy and revels in my misery.
I thought that if I traveled the world I would be happy but I am no jet set and money runs thin and time runs out and hearts grow tired and weary. I am now stuck in this 56 hour work week thats so thin and sickening. I long for the days to throw it all away.
So, I will just come out and say it but it is a quote and not of my own mouth or pen but truth none the less. Rainbow is stupid and drugs are stupid and on the other side I can see why the hard core folks have to be so. I need a nice clean lifestyle to run up into and heal. So, sick of the dealers and the abusers and the dirty old men and the dirty young men and this idea that because I am, must mean that I am here for you to sell, to feel up, to exploit, to ignore, to devalue.
So, I am walking away in my last few minutes and it tears my heart out but that is why I am here. And I will return to wander the earth that I am sure of but no more of this family talk, for all the world is my family and I will not give that up.
Tick Tock Tick Tock
It has become my ring in the trilogy as I am pressed so hard for more and more of it and as I cry as it slips through my fingers. So, time is short as always and I have to put a limit on this but I need it like an addict to the fix. Not sure what brought it on honestly, it could have something to do with the wine or the terry cloth robe or perhaps the late night. Perhaps it has something to do with the loss of my religion as the old song goes, well I guess it is not that long ago. But I remember hearing Mr. Stipe talk about the song when I was a kid and explaining the meaning. I did not understand then what it would mean to lose everything that you believed in, for the bottom to fall out of the heart and soul of what you hold dear. But here it is and here I am and I can not deny that I am feeling what I am.
I guess I was in search of utopia. I thought that I would be happy if I could make someone else happy but he had other things that made him happy. And so I figured I could be happy if everyone else was happy but alas everyone is never happy and revels in my misery.
I thought that if I traveled the world I would be happy but I am no jet set and money runs thin and time runs out and hearts grow tired and weary. I am now stuck in this 56 hour work week thats so thin and sickening. I long for the days to throw it all away.
So, I will just come out and say it but it is a quote and not of my own mouth or pen but truth none the less. Rainbow is stupid and drugs are stupid and on the other side I can see why the hard core folks have to be so. I need a nice clean lifestyle to run up into and heal. So, sick of the dealers and the abusers and the dirty old men and the dirty young men and this idea that because I am, must mean that I am here for you to sell, to feel up, to exploit, to ignore, to devalue.
So, I am walking away in my last few minutes and it tears my heart out but that is why I am here. And I will return to wander the earth that I am sure of but no more of this family talk, for all the world is my family and I will not give that up.
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