Horror and the good stuff

So much of this devastation around me
And still I sit here and study
Can I be so lucky forever
Being a child of the world and all
Can I ask for so much

To be detached and move about
Free will
And my best friend questions
Relationships the source and why
And all I can come up with is pain

Then the mystic man
Jumps out of the darkness
From time to time
He is sad now
And I wonder why

I put my little foot down
And scream
STOP HURTING ME
But will it ever make a difference
Will anyone ever care enough

To just for a moment stop and think
Outside of this moment
Grow and be for real

I am sad now

And I wish for adventure
That stays at home