Thinking bout this and that

Can you hear that?
That this that that that tick tock that rooooommm zooooomm
I thought about a story tonight
About driving along and hitting a person with my car
Perhaps a child
The horror of it
I thought about it
It did not happen

I thought about how we bring into our lives what we need
What we desire
What we deserve
What we have always come to come across

I though about him today
And how he was so lovely

To now be not so lovely

I thought about my own incompetence today

I thought about how nice it is to have someone to support me

I know how to know myself and now it is all about process

But now I am tipsy on wine and meditation is far from me

Now I am thinking about comfort and incompetence and how I want a baby

Now I am sick and alive and enlightenment is still here with me.